The Scourge Of Princes

"I love you, and because I love you, I would sooner have you hate me for telling you the truth than adore me for telling you lies."

- Pietro Aretino

Adam

Yes, for someone who doesn't own a working television set, I sure am watching a lot of TV shows.

It all began about 10 years ago, first with Buffy, then The Sopranos & The Wire, when a small number of TV shows started - for the very first time - to be as well-written & played out as just about any movie, free from the obviously commercial motives & accompanying censorship that had always cheapened that activity before. There were the first signs that television as a medium had the possibility of genuine artistic expression. Recently those early hopes have been flowering with the likes of Breaking Bad, Louie, Enlightened & Lena Dunham's Girls, which I am at this moment in time thoroughly hooked on.

Girls is, for the most part, a comedy, & a very funny one at that, but its greater value is in its refusing to flinch from showing the results of young 21st century women's choices, as well as all the raw realities of modern relationships in a post-feminist world. It's also perhaps the only TV show made for women that genuinely likes men, depicting their lives as something greater than accessories & utilities for women, their experiences & emotions as important as those of their female counterparts. Like a Miranda July movie told in 25 minutes, Girls is brave & thoughtful & original & always has something new to tell me. Tonight I saw the latest episode & one scene in particular is really haunting me right now.

For the uninitiated, the back-story is that Adam, a very strange, very intense, antisocial loner, fresh out of being dumped by the show's main protagonist Hannah, has met & started having sex with this amazing, perfect - perhaps too perfect - new girl & all is going swimmingly for the first week. Then at a party Adam bumps into Hannah again & old feelings of longing, hurt & betrayal are stirred up. He takes his new girlfriend back to his place for the first time & this happens:

Now, I don't know how much of this can be understood without the context, without a familiarity with the many different facets of this particular character but in any other show - even one written by a man - this would be the point where you are meant to realize that this fellow is The Bad Guy, the villain unmasked, perhaps even a murderer or a serial rapist. Some kind of perverted creep, anyway. But that isn't what's being shown here.

Adam had a relationship in which his unvarnished animal nature was accepted & appreciated & his compulsive sexuality gave pleasure to the woman he was with. He is testing Natalia, the new girl, to see if she will turn away from him when she sees him in all his grimy imperfection, if she will leave him too the moment her rose-tinted spectacles slip from her eyes.

There is a scene earlier on, when they first fuck, where she tells him in an oddly precise way what she 'wants', what her 'rules' are (him on top, no soft touching, & come outside of her body). So here, later on, he fucks her in a very cold, selfish way, pushing at her boundaries, yet still managing to not break her rules. Do you see? Something in him needs to rebel, to be free, to fuck her the way he is being driven to in that moment, trying to fuck the pain away, but he is still trying to be a good dog, to work within her wishes even while straining at the leash. He is pushing her away & pulling her to him all at the same time. He doesn't even know himself why he's doing what he's doing, he just knows something is compelling him to do it, & as soon as it's over, his confusion & despair is overwhelming. At the end he is both challenging her to leave him & terrified she will.

I recognize a part of my fundamental male self in Adam, & I found this scene very, very moving, in ways I cannot really explain. There is something being said there about a particular emotional need that is fulfilled when a men 'takes' a woman that we still really have no language for, & in our society is kept entirely shrouded in shame.

I've always found the language of relationships largely female anyway (I have a theory interpersonal language was mostly developed by women 'round the firepit while the men were all out at the hunt) & men end up being forced to use Oprah-friendly terms that (apparently) make sense to women to try describe biological drives & experiences that really lie outside of anything most women can understand or even want to acknowledge exist. In our present society, if that essential part of men is acknowledged to exist at all, it is only to triumphantly hold it up as proof that 'all men are rapists'. No human being wants to be told that their deepest, most private, central core is at heart a sick, dirty criminal beast, so almost all men work their hardest to hide their natural desire, & the acceptance of it they so badly crave, in hopes of proving they are 'good' after all.

Halfway through writing this I looked online to try find the name of the Natalia character & found - to, I'm sorry to say, very little astonishment - that the net is aglow with rabid discussion as to whether the scene is 'really rape' or only 'grey rape' - you know, that kind of Rape they can't lock you up for, yet. That's really sad. I don't think that was Dunham's intent at all, but then you know the world is crammed full of crazy as much as I do. Some days the bullshit is so thick the best you can do is put your foot down as hard as you can & turn the windscreen wipers on.

Like I say, I've come up against that wall of expression & I don't really have the words for any of this, but the show & this scene in particular somehow managed to make some of what needed to be said take visible form outside of language altogether. So I want to thank Lena Dunham for making it. It sucks being a man in this day & age but the future seems a lot less scary with voices like hers in it.

Feminists & Comedy

She had me at "Whatnot":

Feminism Is The Radical Notion That Men Are Not People

How To Lose Friends & Alienate People, Vol.3

Aw come on now... everyone loves a trilogy...

Those previous pieces reminded me to dig out a letter I sent to one of those friends I lost when I first got on board with this way of thinking, three or four years ago. It was one long-ass screed, & most of it would be old news to anyone familiar with the MHRM now, but some of the things I said still hold up so I thought I would dust off some of the better extracts here. 

This is the last of it, I promise, but bear in mind while reading: we were best friends for over 12 years. She never replied to this letter, & I never heard from her again.

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When I last talked with [mutual friend] he tried to convince me to be more specific about which 'branch' of feminism I think is harmful, for fear of upsetting anyone. I've taken this on board, & am trying to integrate it into my thinking but I'm still not truly convinced: it seems to me like being forced to pick which kind of Coca-Cola I want when I don't want Coca-Cola at all, I want water.

Feminism is not 'women', anymore than Communism is 'the masses': the masses don't give a poo about Communism, by & large. In both cases you have a group that deigns to speak for all the people it simply claims as members.

It's like me starting a group called 'The Friendly Foxes Club', that does some work towards helping protect foxes from being hunted. You look into it & see that yes, my group is mad about foxes, but it turns out is also full of really unpleasant people who go out every weekend hunting rabbits.

BUT, the thing is, if you don't join my group, it means you hate foxes.

Well, that's kind of how I feel about feminism right now. The idea that if you believe in equality for all then you believe in feminism is so obviously illogical that it stops me in my tracks whenever I hear it said. How can any group with a gender in its name purport to be acting wholly in the interests of the entire human race? If feminism is truly 'about equality', show me three public statements by any prominent feminist spokesperson saying even one thing positive about men. I've not really looked but I'm fairly sure you can't do it, & yet even 15 seconds with google can get me things like this:

"I want to see a man beaten to a bloody pulp with a high-heel shoved in his mouth, like an apple in the mouth of a pig."

- Andrea Dworkin

"All sex, even consensual sex between a married couple, is an act of violence perpetrated against a woman."
- Catherine MacKinnon 

"(Rape) is nothing more or less than a conscious process of intimidation by which all men keep all women in a state of fear".
Susan Brownmiller

 

"Men who are unjustly accused of rape can sometimes gain from the experience."
- Catherine Comin, Vassar College. Assistant Dean of Students.

There's a lot more where those came from. A hell of a lot more. 45 years worth. And I don't hear feminists of any kind actually denounce statements like these - instead of treating these inhuman, hateful proclamations as the toxic, genocidal rantings they are, the feminists I have met & read seem to regard them as slightly batty aunts that we might not fully agree with after they've had a few but certainly aren't going to say anything bad about because they're family. And besides, Aunt Andrea might go a bit far sometimes, further than we would, but essentially..... she's right.

The problem with mainstream feminism is there is no prominent speaker or author who holds up any of those statements & says 'this is not what we stand for'; 'Andrea Dworkin, we repudiate your hate-speech, Catherine MacKinnon, we repudiate your hate'.. And that is why feminism can never be about equality. And it's also that which tells you what Feminism as a movement is actually all about. Which is the demonization of men in order to acquire political influence & financial power.

Imagine if Jewish spokespeople made statements like 'the population of [the goyim] must be reduced until they approximate only 10% of the population': how much generosity of spirit would we feel towards them then? Or, conversely, what would we think about a person who would write graffiti saying 'dead [Jews] don't rape'?

How could you work alongside people with such hateful ideas? What kind of world would be made by allying yourself with people who think like that?

Feminism is, as you say, a relatively young movement, but it's had enough time to demonstrate its intents. In 40 years it has risen to an astonishing level of power & influence - its demands & petitions are respected like papal bulls in the media, the courts, the workplace, parliaments, schools & universities across the world. It reminds me of that quote by Alan Watts about the difference between a religion & a cult. He said there is none: a religion is simply a cult that has grown too large to be pushed around by the government. Well, feminism is a religion now, not a cult. It's large enough to be scrutinized & held to account.

But it isn't. Ever.

The points you brought up - female circumcision & the female vote - are not really applicable to make any case for modern feminism today in the west. One occurs in small pockets in a culture as far removed from our own as we can get, & the other occurred a hundred years ago. Both are exaggerated & used to whip up emotions to hurry through laws that penalize men & give women special privileges. I'm not disputing that both of these things are horrific or unjust, but it's a lazy, latch-ditch argument that gets thrown out too much simply to silence any dissent at all. What laws are there today that discriminate against women in Britain & America?

While it's true that 100 years ago women could not vote in this country, before 1832, neither could 90% of all men. And after that it was only, at most, 1 in 5, & these almost all rich or middle-class. 'Men', as a group, only got the vote in 1918 (along with women over 30, & 10 years later all women). This means that there was actually only 10 years in british history when 'Men' as a group had the vote & women didn't.

The reason I'm pointing this out is that it shows the essential division is not about gender but about wealth & class & always has been. The great majority of everybody who has ever lived has been poor & disadvantaged. To be angry at & to blame 'men' - billions & billions of men - for all the ills of the world is not only hateful but patently absurd.


I did a little research myself the other day about wealth, & found that in the whole world, the number of people who have a million dollars is 0.13% of the population. That's a tenth of 1 percent of the world.

Now, think about this: these people aren't truly wealthy - they have no special power or influence, for the most part they're just working people made good. A friend of mine, for instance, co-owns & runs a small chain of restaurants. They're doing quite well. I'm not sure what sort of money they pull in but I imagine it can't be too far off that in total. If she were to keep working hard a few more years I expect she could sell it all up & get her million. That wouldn't make her Rich - she wouldn't have yachts & mansions & what have you, & she would have no more power & influence in the world than she - or anyone I know - has ever had. She might be able to live without working if she lived very frugally, but that would be about it.

Above these people there are the super-rich, which are people with, say, $30 million. These are the people we think of when we talk about 'wealth'. These people do have yachts, & they get preferential treatment wherever they go, regardless of their sex. The laws of society apply differently to them, & there are only 85,400 of them in the world. I've not worked out what percentage that is of the world population but I think we can be sure that it is only a very small fraction of that previously mentioned 0.1% of the real world, of humanity.

Above them still are the billionaires: out of the nearly 7 billion people in the world there are only 793 of them. Imagine a football stadium. Now imagine a pea in the middle.....

By the way, 84% of all these millionaires & billionaires - men or women - are married & have children. This is an important point because once we realize that, we see that we are not talking about gender anymore but families, organizations, dynasties.. The wife of every wealthy man is pretty much as wealthy as he is: if he dies, she gets the money. If she divorces him she gets half, or something like. And when both of them die, the kids get it, regardless of their sex.

It should be obvious to all that the issue is not whether men or women hold the reins of political power - the families & corporations that hold practically all the wealth & resources of planet earth are an infinitesimal tiny minority, & it really doesn't matter the sex of them, because there's so few of them & their lives & concerns are so different to ours. 

To say that 'men', as a group, have 'power' is a fallacy. And to say that 'men' have it easy is a revolting lie. It's hard all over, for practically everyone. And it's probably always been that way. Whatever vision of the world we want for the future has to be a world where we acknowledge that, & love people for being people, to work towards making a better world for all. And Feminism is not the way to bring this about, as it only works towards ends that give power to one half of them.

> the white male has had it too good for too long for me to feel too concerned with his
> 'rights' or perceive 'gender feminism' as 'sinful'... with all the wrongs
> in this word, this is not one that's high on my personal agenda of
> perceived threats to the planet and/or humanity's development.

99.9% of all the millions & millions slaughtered in battle this past hundred years are men, men & boys. Only men in our society are forcibly conscripted. Men's bodies are not considered their own - they have to go to the front & allow themselves to be murdered or else be shot as a traitor. 9 out of 10 of those British working class men sent to their deaths in the first world war didn't even have the vote.

Are these the white males who have had it so good for so long?

More than 93% of all fatalities at work are men - 93% of everyone who dies at work, anywhere, is male. Why is that? Because only men are expected to do the jobs in which you can die.

What does this tell us about how we see men & womens place & worth in the world?

 

Men are 90% of the homeless & 80% of the suicides - that last one the world over [with the exception of China, if I remember correctly]. I don't see how, by any stretch of the imagination, men can be said to be having it easy. It's a myth. Or rather, it's a vile fallacy propagated entirely by feminism...

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Well, I'll wrap it up there. Reading it over again, it puzzles me just what that friend of mine found so ugly & unforgivable that she felt duty-bound to end all contact with me. It's a strange old world & doesn't seem to make a great deal of sense but I've started to accept that as a reliable base-camp to set out from. And as I've said before, it is only ideology that can make good people do bad things: me, her, you... all of us have to be vigilant of the hypnotic pull of our beliefs. Here endeth the lesson for today.

Feminist History Month

March is Feminist History Month so we thought we'd do our bit in highlighting some of the real-life events from the past 50 years in the feminist historical narrative, such as this great leap forward in the hitherto glass-ceilinged patriarchal world of superheroes in 1975. Ms Valkyrie later went on to brutally kill off Spiderman, Iron Man, Batman, Superman... in fact all the male characters in the Marvel & DC universes by the end of the 1970s, helping to create the peaceful, egalitarian, female-only society we now enjoy today:

Next week: Valerie Solanas completes construction of her first concentration camp & sticks it to The Man! 

How To Lose Friends & Alienate People, Vol.2

So, this week I got yet another letter from another friend who didn't want to know me anymore. 

She returned the gift I'd sent her & told me she hoped one day my 'hatred of women' would pass. Of course - & as usual - nothing that I’d said to her was even remotely expressive of any hatred of any woman whatsoever, only critical of a specific political ideology which I think I can demonstrate demonizes & scapegoats one whole half of the human race for political gain & financial support. It was frustrating, of course, that she was unable to take that on board, even as a hypothetical position. I guess I could get angry at her, but 10 years ago it's entirely possible I would have done the very same thing myself. And besides, the fact of the matter is, I wasn’t arguing with her: I was arguing with someone else, from long ago, someone neither of us had ever met, whose mean, unfounded, fear-mongering proclamations about the world she had come to believe & now felt duty-bound to defend.

It’s funny: you can tell a person a lie but very often they won’t believe it, because they can see with their own eyes that what you say isn’t so. It is only ideology that can make someone believe something all their senses tell them isn’t so. 

Such is the nature of the beast. Pretty much all belief systems are based on nothing more than a couple of notions some impassioned passer-by has managed to make seem plausible to a larger bunch of lesser minds. Get yourself enough gullible souls together & you've got yourself a cult. A few more, you got yourself a religion.

But if a person is choosing their beliefs that way, of course,  they must surely also have to recognize that’s also why other people - you know, those other wrong people—chose to be Mormons, or Scientologists, Freudians, UFO freaks, al-Qaeda... Or, y’know, feminists.

This Losing Of The Friends ritual has happened so often at this point that I am no longer surprised, but it still hurts, & each time it happens I lose a little more faith in human beings. I’m more surprised now when people choose not to hate, not to turn their backs, than I am at their ideologically-instilled unkindnesses. It's hard for me, these days, not to see every crowd of people as anything but two meetings away from a lynch mob.

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I've got the kind of mind that thinks a lot about thinking, about all the different psychic spaces other people & animals I meet are inhabiting. I think a lot about how a dog sees the world, for instance, & how much information goes right up their noses. I think about how others see me, & if what they see is more true than what I see when I look at myself. I think about what must have gone through the heads of my old, turncoat friends to make it seem right just to abandon someone that they loved & who loved them only days before. It’s sure been a hard few years, I lost two lovers & a fistful of my very best friends. The former had little to do with falling out of love with feminism, the latter everything. And I'm not someone who makes friends easily. So I find myself still poring over the ashes, trying to figure it all out like some kind of riddle, as if I think if I can solve it I can go back & make it right. But of course, I can’t. Nothing leaves as fast as love.

Still, I wish I could convey in words just how special I thought these people were, how set apart from the herd they always seemed to me to be. We could argue about philosophy, religion, race, capitalism, communism, revolution... just about anything at all, I thought. So strange that of all things, criticizing feminist hate-speech turns out to be the one that makes them turn tail & run. But of course also kind of telling: the desire to protect the female of the species, to put their safety & well-being before that of the male, is hardwired into all of us, male & female, regardless of the validity of the dangers - real or imagined - we can be made to believe are threatening them.

Misandry is a word most people have still never heard. Everyone these days knows what Misogyny means. That in itself says a lot about the age we are living in: how one type of hatred can seem trivial, or even invisible, while its mirror image can be made to seem the worst thing in the world. And I used to spread that hatred of men as much as the worst of them. These days, thankfully, I see just how abhorrent my actions were back then, but no-one else I know thinks that way, & probably won't for some time yet.

To me, they have let the cause down, & of course they must think the same of me. But the cause, as I saw it, was never any movement, any political ideology or sports team to wear the colours of but simply Truth itself, wherever that may lead us. The task was to grope our way ever closer to that distant light. To speak truth to power. To change as the universe requires. To have the guts to change your mind in public.

You change & you grow.  Hopefully, you don't sell your principals out for money or an easy life, but when you realize you've been lied to, when you realize you’ve reached conclusions that are woefully wrong, you move on, you wise up, you try to fail less destructively next time. Change & growth don’t end once you’ve turned 21—that should itself be obvious to all: what 21 year old would want to be stuck living by the beliefs & values they had when they were 9? Yet to see the changes a 40 year old father goes through is as incomprehensible to a 21-year old as the behaviour of that 21-year old is to that prepubescent boy swearing to himself that when he gets older he's never going to be interested in stupid girls.

The maddening thing about getting older is the realization that for all of your living & all of your learning, & all of your powers of expression, there are things you have learned that you cannot pass on to others, no matter how hard you try. It’s rather like trying to explain sex to that 9-year old: there really is nothing you can say about their future that they will be able to understand. The best you can do is tell them that they’ll be there soon enough themselves, & then it won’t need explaining at all.

Of course, most people within an ideology don’t think like that, or at least don’t live like that. That’s the point. What would be the use of accepting the Lord Jesus Christ into your heart if it were only a halfway house until something better came along? Until you found something more right, more true?

One of these friends of mine told me in our last real conversation  together - & with a remarkably straight face - that he identified himself as a feminist ‘because he believed in equality’. Yes, it’s an old one but a doubleplusgood one, & it put me in mind of something Bill Hicks once said in response to a pro-lifer: “You’re Pro-Life? What does that make me?” 

This, of course, is another defining attribute of ideology: to claim universal principles of goodness for your own. So for instance, an act of kindness or charity is reclassified under the Christian narrative a 'Christian' act. If you believe in fairness for all then you already support the Revolutionary Communist Party, why not just sign up? If you care about the safety & well-being of women then don't you know you're a Feminist? And so on, etc. As if none of these noble virtues ever existed before those crooked, parasitical institutions opened up their collection boxes for fundraising. 

I remember many years ago a feminist member of the RCP urging me to forget my misgivings & join so that I could “change it from within”. That’s got to be maybe 15 years ago now, & in that time - you know what? - the Revolutionary Communist Party hasn’t changed in any particularly discernible way, & neither has the fundamental core of feminism.

I wouldn’t identify myself as a feminist anymore than I would identify myself as a Christian, a Communist, or a member of the Ku Klux Klan. Now, I’m sure that there must be some kind, humane, gifted or even brilliant people working beneath the umbrella of all those organizations. I really am. The law of averages demands it. But I wouldn’t want to join them because I’ve seen enough of what they have done to know that I disagree with much of what they stand for, & that to involve myself with them would not change the essential nature of what they do even one little bit, though it might very well change me.

Feminism’s past is littered with as many hateful, separatist statements as the KKK or the National Front. They may well be as invisible to our age’s sensibilities as the antisemitic remarks so common the world over in the 1930’s were to the people of that time, but a person's morality must be above their age, above their society. And yes, above their friends.

Well, I could go on. I realize I’m hardly the first this craziness has happened to, either here & now or in the past; over this particular insanity or a long, long list of others. Every age has its delusions & a few foolhardy martyrs prepared to laugh at them. But the world keeps on continuing, & 50 years from now will look dramatically different to the way it looks today, whether it turns out to my liking or not.

Anyway, the problem remains: it's a lot harder to walk the future all alone. Whoever you are, a good friend is hard to come by & a great joy to find. And yet, it turns out, so easy to throw away.

*sigh*

 My life is a Kafkaesque nightmare.

How To Lose Friends & Alienate People, Vol.1

It is surprisingly easy to find yourself cast out of pretty much any ideological belief system.

The way to discover whether you are IN an ideological belief system - whether you are, in fact, part of a batshit crazy cult - is simply this: Disagree with it.

Go on, try it. What's the worst that could happen?

Well, the worst that could happen, it turns out, is this: the great majority of everyone you know from within that belief system will now not only want nothing more to do with you, but will also go around telling everyone else you used to know what a Bad Person you now are. 

The unfortunate fact of the matter is - & yes I know you know this already, but watch me do my thing - if you speak out on behalf of the human rights of men & boys in public discourse, if you want to at least consider treating men & boys with even a smidgen of the compassion & concern we have always accorded women & girls, you will discover, with little delay, just how terrifyingly at odds you are with not only the present state-enforced laws & beliefs of your society, but even the hardwired impulses of your own biology. We evolved to put women & children first, & indeed most likely wouldn’t even be here if we hadn’t, or at least not in anything like these numbers. And for all our talk of equality, little of that has, will, or can change.

Male disposability was, of course, around long before feminism appeared - there is no society which sends its women off to war while the men stay home & play with the children, no society where the women get sent down into pitch-black mines nine hours a day, every day for the rest of their lives, or are made to go try kill ferocious people-devouring animals for others to eat while the men pick berries. But this innate lack of compassion for men was never exploited to anything like the degree it is now, & in such a gleefully callous fashion.

Men of the past were at least accorded some degree of gratitude for their service & sacrifices— a father who chose to stick around & care & provide for a woman & the children she bore was once reserved a position of dignity in his community at least a little higher than, say, Homer Simpson. If he got divorced he could still expect to keep the children he was providing for. A man who went to war to defend his country from invasion was thanked when he came back & told he was a hero, not a baby killer. A man who succeeded at business was thought a hard worker & a good catch, instead of a male chauvinist pig who needs to check his privilege.

That hatred, & the lies & propaganda which feed it, emanate from a single source, a single set of narrative assumptions about the world that had never been expressed by anyone until around 100 years ago, & the past 40 or 50 in earnest. And if you’re here, well, you already know what name that set of assumptions goes under.

The nature of all ideologies is that those within them do not perceive what they believe in as ideologies but simply The Truth: Christians, Atheism+ fanatics, Marxists, Nazis, Feminazis, Freudians, & 9/11 conspiracy buffs... what these seemingly wildly differing positions have most in common is an inability to see the limits of their position. And also the unshakeable belief that 'if you’re not for us then you’re against us. And if you're against us, then you deserve everything you get. In fact, you deserve everything we're going to give you, you fucking scum...'  

To fix the popular atheist slogan, it is only ideology that can make good people do bad things.

The reaction of sheeplike followers to any independent thought which contradicts the tenets of their beliefs is always that the person saying it must be a Bad Person. If you contradict the teachings of Christianity? It is The Devil talking. The only reason you could ever possibly want to criticize Communism is that you hate the working class. If you point out the hate speech & absurdities inherent in the Nation Of Islam, it must mean that you hate black people. And if a person criticizes Feminism, then they must hate women. Right? 

After all, there’s no other possible explanation, is there?

And so the pack turns on the individual, to stop them saying those troubling things: Troubling things leads to cognitive dissonance & that makes me feel bad. Why would you want to make me feel bad? You must be a Bad Man.

And so it goes.

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I imagine there must be a moment in everyone’s life, even if they don’t now even remember it, when they first asked that question they shouldn’t have, when they spoke out of turn, said out loud a thought that was theirs alone, instead of simply repeating what dogma they have been taught up to that point - & immediately saw how inappropriate & deeply unappreciated whatever they had to say of their own was considered by the body of believers around them.

When that happens - & it will, at some point, to just about everyone - the great majority of people will simply say 'OH! I see I was wrong to say that, I apologize, & I'll know not to say that, or even think that, in future." We learn pretty fast, what to say & what not. As I’ve said elsewhere, the price of conformity is the loss of individual thought; the reward for conformity is love, acceptance & support. Most human beings, naturally, would like both. But if it comes to it, 19 out of 20 of us will always choose the latter.

And there’s the rub: say I want to continue working towards halting the ecological destruction of planet earth. That seems to me to be an empirically worthwhile activity to devote at least some of one's life to - dependent on the details, obviously, & the likelihood of success, on a case by case basis. But you're not going to get very far trying to do that all on your own, so you have to try work with others. The problem is, once you start doing that, once you involve yourself with other people presumably motivated by similar intentions, you find within that - or any - movement there is a shared set of laws you didn't know were there when you first signed up. Political Correctness is ideologically created, state-enforced morality & there is no greater threat to basic human freedoms of thought & expression than the acceptance of PC authority. But the people who make it their stated aim to overthrow state-control also happen to be its biggest supporters.

I spent most of the past 20 years surrounded by people I thought were the most open-minded, truth-seeking individuals in the western hemisphere. Feminism, unfortunately, was a part of that shared worldview, as it is for most of my generation - one of those unchallenged assumptions that makes an ass out of u & me.

Some of those unspoken assumptions were simple, golden-rule common sense: do unto others as you would have them do unto you; Be Kind, be fair, work for the good of all humanity rather than just thinking of yourself. Stuff like that. But some of the beliefs seemed to get a little more rigid & specific over time, leading to concepts such as ‘The Patriarchy’, ‘Male Privilege’, ‘Positive Discrimination’ & the ‘Female-Safe Spaces’ needed because of the ’Rape Culture’ & so forth & so on, without a great deal of thought given over to where any of that repugnant shit originated. The language of Political Correctness & feminist hate just sort of appeared like mist, like the morning dew, & one day we woke up covered in it. Or I did, anyway. Woke up, that is.

The thing about any ideology is, & I'll wrap it up now, that you very rarely realize there is one there until you disagree with it. And the thing about life is that it is bigger than any ideology, bigger than any idea we can have about it, any ultimate explanation for it we can attempt to give. All definitive explanations invariably come to obscure the wild & shaggy uncertainties of life.

I’m as guilty of this as anyone, & I still can feel myself fall into those habits now just the same as when I was a feminist. I mean, I hopefully know at least a little about what I’m speaking of now, & my positions these days are based on more than just emotional haranguing & white knight indignation. But the only really obvious difference I can see between my life now & my life then is simply that people treated me a lot better back then.

But what can a poor boy do? You can’t start believing in things you now know to be lies. You can’t go back to believing in Santa Claus when you’ve white hairs growing in your own beard.

Awww, fuck it. They crucified Lenny Bruce too.

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